Infinite Completion – a little heated snippet

A whirlwind romance neither one was prepared for šŸ“š

As the music changes to a slower beat, the guy moves closer to me. Before I can even move back from him, Phil has moved in between us and I feel Valentineā€™s hand in mine. Iā€™m pulled away from the group so fast that my head spins, and it takes a moment to focus.

Valentineā€™s face is ashen. I havenā€™t seen this look before. ā€˜Come on, weā€™re leaving,ā€™ he shouts over the music, pulling me behind him without looking back at me.

ā€˜What? Why?ā€™ I shout at him. He doesnā€™t answer me.

ā€˜Sam, Iā€™ll call you tomorrow and you can bring me to get the bike?ā€™

ā€˜Yeah, man ā€“for sure! Be good, sis,ā€™ he shouts out over the music with a grin.

I can feel my temper rising. The cold early-morning air makes my head spin, as we step out onto the street.

Valentine leads me to a taxi, opens the door and guides me in. ā€˜Watch your head,ā€™ he says as he slides in next to me and leans over to put on my seat belt.

ā€˜I can manage my own seatbelt,ā€™ I say, starting to feel really annoyed. Heā€™s dragged me from my friends ā€“and my brother ā€“for what?

ā€˜I want to make sure itā€™s on properly,ā€™ he says flatly. Heā€™s really annoyed too, but why? He doesnā€™t sound like Valentine.

ā€˜Where are you going?ā€™ says the taxi driver, looking at Valentine through his rear vision mirror.

ā€˜22 Copper Ave, Lathlain,ā€™ he answers, not taking his eyes from me, doing up my seat belt.

ā€˜Whatā€™s wrong with you?ā€™ I say, trying my best to sound compliant. I really donā€™t like to see him upset. And I hate conflict.

ā€˜That guy was hitting on you,ā€™ he says calmly, as the taxi pulls out onto the road.

The driver flicks on the heater and turns the radio up a little ā€“probably so he doesnā€™t appear to be listening to our argument.

ā€˜So we leave, because a drunk guy was dancing nearby?ā€™ I keep my own voice low. Itā€™s an honest question.

ā€˜He was dancing very close to you and his eyes were all over you,ā€™ Valentine explains, as though he is explaining why we use an umbrella when it rains.

ā€˜Phil came close to me so the guy would back off. I didnā€™t need you to pull me away like Iā€™d done something wrong.ā€™

ā€˜You did nothing wrong, Abbie,ā€™ he says.

Now I know Iā€™m in trouble ā€“Abbie ā€“what happened to Princess? He takes a long breath and takes hold of my hand. ā€˜Iā€™m sorry ā€“I just donā€™t like it,ā€™ he adds, as though this clarifies everything. ā€˜It was all under control.ā€™

ā€˜No it wasnā€™t ā€“what if heā€™d hurt you?ā€™ ā€˜He wasnā€™t even very close ā€“and Phil was there!ā€™ ā€˜Where I come from, we settle things differently,ā€™ he snaps.

ā€˜Whatā€™s that supposed to mean?ā€™

He sighs and speaks lower. ā€˜In my neighbourhood, if a man mistreated a girl, heā€™d be dealt with before the police even had a chance to arrest him. Iā€™ve been boxing since I was ten and Iā€™ve been fighting for survival since I could walk. Iā€™m sorry, but instinct sometimes gets the better of me and I try to avoid situations where I may be forced to kill a manā€”ā€™

ā€˜Youā€™d kill a man, because he dances near me?ā€™ ā€˜Iā€™d kill a bull for you,ā€™ he says flatly.

I canā€™t believe heā€™s being so serious. ā€˜He was just dancing near me! You canā€™t go around beating people up for dancing too close to your girlfriend!ā€™ Iā€™m so angry that my voice is getting louder.

ā€˜Iā€™m sorry, Princess,ā€™ he whispers and squeezes my hand. ā€˜I will not share you, even with another manā€™s eyes or thoughts.ā€™

Whoa! Now hereā€™s a revelation. Does he want to hide me in a tower somewhere? This doesnā€™t sound like my Valentine at all. ā€˜You canā€™t wrap me up in cotton wool,ā€™ I shout at him, a little too loudly. He flicks his eyes to the front of the car briefly to see if the taxi driver heard but then looks back down at my fingers entwined through his. ā€˜And I left my rose behind,ā€™ I add, realising I left my rose on the bar with my drink.

‘I can get you another roseā€”ā€™

ā€˜I donā€™t want another damn rose, I want you to not behave like a teenager,ā€™ I snap.

ā€˜I want to be the beginning and end of your world ā€“with no exceptions. And I donā€™t want other men looking at youā€”ā€™

ā€˜I canā€™t stop people from looking at meā€¦ even though they arenā€™t anyway ā€“youā€™re not flattering me with this behaviour,ā€™ I say.

Thereā€™s silence for a few minutes; except for the song playing on the radio. Radioheadā€™s Creep. I love this song. Valentine is my creep, and I love him.

ā€˜I know I canā€™t stop them from looking ā€“I was being silly. I just donā€™t know how Iā€™m going to cope with you being so damn beautiful and me feeling this way. This is all very new to me ā€“forgive me, Princess?ā€™ he smiles.

I manage to smile at him, but Iā€™m still mad.

ā€˜Good, now letā€™s go home and make up,ā€™ he grins at me wolfishly. How can I stay mad?

ā¤ Infinite Completion ~ Amazon link:

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My Top 5 Reads for 2017


I’ve read around 25 books this year, but these are my favourite (mostly because they’re some of my favourite authors). 

Anyone who knows me would tell you I have a small obsession with dragons, and whilst none of these feature dragons, they do transport the reader into adventure and beautiful places; and I do love to travel.

Without further ado, here are my picks for 2017.

1. Origin – Dan Brown 


 

Dan Brown is one of my favourite authors, so itā€™s only fitting his latest release would top my reading list for 2017. Dan Brown brings us Robert Langdon again in this science fiction mystery thriller and I couldnā€™t put it down.

When Robert Langdon, Harvard professor of symbology and religious iconology, arrives at the Guggenheim, Museum Bilbao, to attend the unveiling of a discovery that “will change the face of science forever”, his life is spun out of control in a desperate bid to save his life and the lives of others. With his life under threat, Langdon is forced to flee to Barcelona on a perilous quest to locate a cryptic password that will unlock Kirschā€™s secret, along with the museumā€™s director, Ambra Vidal.

The heart racing quest with Robert Langdon (I always picture Tom Hanks) through Barcelona was nothing short of fantastic and if you feel like a holiday to Greece, Iā€™d definitely read this one!

Hereā€™s the Kindle link;

 

2. The Break – Marian Keyes


This is the latest release for one of my favourite authors and I wasnā€™t disappointed. Marian Keyes is a wise, witty, Irish writer who seems to be able to mingle humour and heartbreak like they belong together in a delicious chocolate cake. Really! Take my word, she does it so effortlessly.

In The Break, Amy’s husband Hugh says he isn’t leaving her. He says he still loves her, but he needs a break – from their marriage, their children and, most of all, from their life together. I couldnā€™t believe what I was reading! It caught my attention so dramatically; I couldnā€™t put this book down. Hugh wanted six months to lose himself in South East Asia (which did sound great), and there was nothing Amy could say or do about it.

Gosh, now thatā€™s some mid-life crisis! 

Hughā€™s mid-life crisis is enough to send Amy and her extended family of gossips and eccentric friends into damage control ā€“ bringing tears of laughter and heartbreak (so have plenty of tissues!).

Hereā€™s the Kindle link;

 

3. The Stationmasterā€™s Cottage ā€“ Phillipa Nefri Clarke


I love a good romance novel; one with mystery, beautiful settings and hunky love interests ā€“ oh and a dog is always a winner! When this book was released, I couldnā€™t wait to buy my Kindle copy, settling on the couch with a wine and some tissues.

The book opens with Christie Ryanā€™s carefully constructed life being turned upside-down with the inheritance of an abandoned cottage in an Australian seaside village. A damaged painting, a hunky guy (with dog) and the discovery of old love letters draws her into the heart wrenching world of Thomas and Martha and their fifty year old mystery. Christie is a gorgeous character who I immediately connected with and found myself cheering her on as she unravelled the mystery sheā€™d been plunged into.

If you love a good romance; one with mystery, beautiful settings and a hunky love interest (with a dog), then get your copy here;

 

4. The Art of Keeping Secrets ā€“ Rachael Johns


I recently attended a Rachael Johns book tour for The Greatest Gift at the gorgeous Katherine Susannah Prichard library in Perth, Western Australia. I wonā€™t lie, I was a tad excited to be meeting Rachael, after speaking with her over social media and us becoming Facebook friends. So, as I had my books signed and I settled down in my chair to listen to her speak about her latest release – with the burnt orange sun setting behind the surrounding gumtrees (we have the best sunsets!) – I was already planning how and when Iā€™d read my first Rachael Johns book, The Art of Keeping Secrets.  

I was holding a signed copy of The Greatest Gift and The Art of Keeping Secrets, feeling like Iā€™d won the lotto. The blurb on The Art of Keeping Secrets had really caught my eye!

 They started out as the “misfit moms”–the trio of less-than-conventional parents at their sonsā€™ tiny private school. Theyā€™ve shared everything. Or so they thought. Now, on a once-in-a-lifetime trip to New York City, theyā€™ll sightsee, theyā€™ll shop, theyā€™ll catch a few Broadway shows. Theyā€™ll tell allā€¦

After seventeen years as a single parent, Neve will reveal a past sin that could destroy her relationship with her son. Emma will uncover the roots of her exhaustion and divulge the inappropriate feelings she has for her boss. And Flick–who knows a little about crafting a flawless exterior–will share the shocking truth that lies beneath the veneer of her perfect marriageā€¦
So, of course when I arrived home, after saying hello to the hubby and the poodle, Moet, I poured myself a glass of wine and settled onto the couch with The Art of Keeping Secrets ā€“ Iā€™m so glad it was a Friday! 

Hereā€™s the Kindle link;


5. Stars of Fortune (Book I of the Guardian Trilogy) ā€“ Nora Roberts


Iā€™ve read almost all of Noraā€™s books ā€“ yes, Iā€™m slightly addicted. And when my daughters bought this gorgeous book for me at Christmas, it wasnā€™t long before Iā€™d sunk my teeth in (well not literally, but, you get the gist?).
This story has everything (except dragons). In true Nora style, it has steamy romance, mystery and adventure, but it also has a fantasy element and supernatural theme. 

I was immediately drawn to the main character, Sasha Riggs, a reclusive artist, haunted by vivid dreams that she turns into extraordinary paintings. As she becomes more and more desperate to understand her visions, she finds herself drawn to the Greek island of Corfu, and I was there with her. Isnā€™t is fantastic when you can read a book and travel to beautiful places?  

Sasha arrives in Corfu (and this is on my “to visit” list) and encounters Bran Killian, an Irish magician with a warm charisma and secrets dancing in his eyes. Sheā€™s never met Bran before, but she knows him only too well – because this is the man from her dreams. Bran is the man she seems fated to be with… if she can find the courage to accept who she really is.
Together they meet up with others who have come to Corfu to find answers and a dangerous, yet, wonderful adventure begins.

Hereā€™s the Kindle link;

 

 

Writing Grief – Michelle DennisĀ 

Iā€™ve heard it said, quite often, it takes a tragedy or a dark period in life to truly get to know your Self. I guess this makes perfect sense that a writer would write far deeper when submerged in grief or emotional turmoil, because theyā€™re thinkers. Iā€™ve also heard of writers not knowing theyā€™re writers until tragedy or illness strikes.

For me, this is true. I wrote a medieval adventure for middle-grade kids (and adults who love a good fairytale) ā€“ when I injured myself and had nothing better to do while the kids were at school. I was house-bound for months and when reading, housework and midday television wasnā€™t enough, I started to write down story plots and characters ā€“ jotting down things that crept into my imagination. I found it quite liberating; like writing in diary of sorts. I finished two manuscripts by the time my injury had repaired, I discovered there was more to come. I had started writing a romance novel ā€“ just for my own eyes and used it to re-discover my young Self. Between school drop-off, studying to be a Library Technician, school pick-up, mum duties and wifey stuff, I wrote a story of love, depression, cancer, bereavement and family. I wasnā€™t experiencing any tragic periods in my life, but I drew on some of my past and delved into the character of a twenty year old girl on the brink of finding the love and lesson of her life. Infinite Completion was born.


 

Almost two years later my world tipped upside down, with the death of my brother. And whilst I had just started the sequel to my romance novel, it brought out some very dark writing moments, for sure. My heart was shattered, and with this came grief, anger, and a lot of questions.

I wrote a lot. I wrote to complete my sequel, but I also wrote my feelings and muses during the weeks of my brothers passing ā€“ like I had to get to out of my head and onto paper ā€“ literally written on paper, in scrap books and note books, and any piece of paper I could find. Writing made sense. It helped me see in the dark. I started to take notice of the flaws in people, in our society and of course, my characters. Valentine, my brooding, handsome, singer of a local pub band opened up and boy was it messy. His story was Absolution ā€“ something neither of us were ready for.

Iā€™d stumbled into writing kids adventures, with friendly dragons and grumpy knights ā€“ and as my newly awakened passion emerged, I found more of my Self as I worte about romance and real life stuff. Then, in my darkest hour, I uncovered a strength to pull apart my thoughts. To take each piece and develop Valentineā€™s character even further. I wanted to adress social issues and make the reader think. Really think. To say this was hard is an understatement. Writing Absolution drew out my pain and displayed it in someone elseā€™s voice. It was pushing my boundaries and making me work harder. Then, as I had the finish line in sight, my husband had a severe stroke, miles away from home. My world, my childrenā€™s world and his world spun on its axis. With months of therapy; for us all, I really felt Iā€™d never write again. I could feel it calling me, but I just didnā€™t have time. My every waking hour was about my husband, our kids and my Self.

Nonetheless, as time went on, I found time to sit. And think. And write. I was drawn back to Valentine and his world ā€“ where I submerged in his grief. I could have drowned myself in alcohol or drugs ā€“ at times I felt like it. But, I was a mum and wife. I wasnā€™t going to give in. I could, however, write without causing any harm to myself or anyone else.

I eventually finished Absolution and on October 10 2016 it went live on Amazon.com.

I am working on another couple of manuscripts, and wouldnā€™t wish dark times on anyone, but I know writing is my answer to grief and its many layers.

Is this something you do as an artist? Iā€™d love to have some feedback from other writers or artists about what drives their best work.